3rd day

How am I feeling? Today that was a question that disturbed me. I feel terrible, I am irritated, and I really dont feel like talking to anyone. The ironic thing is that I seem to be getting worse. It was almost unberable to sit through therapy today. I still have a hard time believing that I "may" be bipolar, I have researched it and its not me. All I know is that I dont feel like myself, I feel pain but I cannot pinpoint where it is coming from. I just want to lay down all day but I dont. I get up and do what needs to be done. Doesnt everyone go through this? Why cant I just SNAP out of it.